2977. Robert Southey to Grosvenor Charles Bedford, 18- April 1817*
Warcop. 18 April 1817.
My dear Grosvenor
Your letter reached me yesterday, – on the it was Herberts death day, the reflections to which this circumstance might give rise need not be pointed out. – You have been above all persons whom I have ever known, fortunate in your parents, in possessing them so long, – & in losing them so easily, – both having lived out their days & then fallen asleep in a manner xx <more> nearly resembling what the Greeks called ενδαυασια  than is often vouchsafed to the members of a society so artificial, & in many respects so unfavourable to animal existence as ours. – What has happened was inevitable,  an evil which was daily to be apprehended, – & every day more than the last. It is in the course of nature, & has been just what in all things you would have wished it to be.
I am now very anxious to see you, – & most unfortunately very doubtful when that will be. I came here on Monday with the two Ediths  & Bertha, & xx Senhouse has taken my place as well as his own in the mail of Tuesday next. But on Tuesday last I walked about two miles in the face of a bitter North wind, without a great coat, – not having intended to go beyond the garden & orchard when I left the house. The wind struck into my intestines, – & from that time I have had just so much inflammation of the bowels as to make me perfectly aware of the necessity of great attention to a complaint which any moment might render very seriously alarming. Certainly I must not venture upon a mail coaching of 42 hours till some days after it has been entirely removed.
I return the proofs to you,  – because any thing which takes you out of yourself will be salutary at this time. You will see that I have struck out every thing which you & Harry have objected to, – & added three paragraphs, two of which are from the castrations of the Q R.  I do not by any means agree with Turners remarks upon the fitness of expressing no resentment.
I have had no return of pain during the last 24 hours, – & if I continue well, shall pursue my course on Monday.
I think you will find nothing left in the proofs which can be exceptionable to any person except Mr Smith himself; & as for him, the proverb says as he has brewed he must bake. Quisque suae fortunae Faber.